Nothing

In between work, managing our home and managing our Cell Group, I am happy. Even without a baby yet.

God is ever merciful. :)

Another Cycle Begins

The so-called magic multiplying pill

Still unsure if I fell pregnant or not, so I have started another cycle on my part.

Truth be told, I hate taking Clomid, because it affects my hormones and causes me to be super emotional  and depressed (more than my usual once-a-month drama). This is my third dose, with the dosage upped to 3 pills from 1 pill a day.

Expect melodrama from moi by mid of next month, if you please.

For the past 2 years plus, I have learned to manage my emotions and anticipation (expectations) of getting pregnant. It isn't always easy, since sometimes I get into such a funk that I mope around and cry for days.

Praying hard that I don't go crazy if this round doesn't work (again).

Yes or No?

Period arrived = not pregnant

Period has little discharge, not like usual period = pregnant?

Pregnancy test showed a BFN = not pregnant

Early pregnancy symptoms (rise in body temperature for at least 2 weeks, nausea, etc?) = pregnant?


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Or it could just be that I'm fat and unhealthy.


The suspense is killing me!
*chews Chewbacca's head off*

Adoption is a Calling

Yes, it is.

I have always wanted to adopt since I was young. Before I met Hubs, before puberty.

Calling it is. :)

Scary Thoughts

For the past 6 months, I have had thoughts of "If I married another man, I would've had 2 children by now".

Scary, eh?

Its a BFN!

Got a BFN on the pee stick, and my period came this morning. Talk about synchronised timing... haha! :)

Not my photo, but its a true reflection of my BFN-ness

Was feeling miserable the whole afternoon, until I decided to take a bath. Mood perked up immediately.
(Note to self: Always take a nice bath when moody).

Praying for a BFP next round, and that Hubs and I remain positive until then. Was contemplating a romantic just-for-two holiday with Hubs soon, but then again, the stress will build up when people around us ask the same old dull questions "going for a make a baby trip?" before we go, and "so...successful or not?" when we return. Dunno whether to laugh or cry with these questions. Lols.

Please please please God..... we want to have our own family.
*prays hard*

n_n

The Long Haul

Hubs and I have been TTC for close to 3 years now.

Today, I spotted some pink spots on the pad and stringy red discharge when I wipe (could it be..?). I am 5 days late, and have a dull-ish sore back (unlike my sourish sore back during regular periods).

Trying not to be too excited about it until a test shows up positive, so to distract myself, I am DIY-ing some baby items to compliment the baby stuff I already bought last month [Yes I'm crazy, I know :)].

The still-empty Baby Carrier